These days, somehow newly re-understanding that Source has a ‘better’, ‘true’ understanding of things and I can feel its perspective with my emotions, can be guided with them,

Bashar says: “We know you understand it. But what you need is to understand it.”

I feel that now I’m starting to understand it. :)

I found for myself a new pleasure:

I’m taking things that sit in me as ‘something that I did wrong’, and deconstruct them, listening to my feelings this time, valuing it, feeling for a more aligning resolution.

One such example that I chose today (or it chose me), was that when I was working as a programmer, there were times when I was not really working at work. Reading something not related to work.

It popped in me today as something I still was blaming myself for. Something that I did wrong. Feeling bad about it all, of course, very bad.

So this time I thought, okay,

“It was a bad thing for me to do.” – feels bad, so probably my Source sees it differently.. how?..
“It wasn’t such a bad thing for me to do, whatever the reason.” – feels better.
“It actually was a good thing for me to do.” – feels better still.
“It was a very good thing for me to do” – feels really good!

So okay, I thought, I should try and go in this direction.. but when I tried to figure out, why it could be good, I felt bad. Maybe because this whole thing was about judging, estimating me, trying to find objective estimation..

So I thought:

“I have to know why it was good to do” – feels bad.
“I could know, but I don’t have to” – feels better.

It reminded me of Vadim Zeland’s (author of “Reality Transurfing”, among my most favorite books on Law of Attraction and how things work) theory:

He says, very simplistically, that every event is like a junction, because from it we can go to a line of life, where it turns to the good for us, or to the line, where it turns to be bad.

(Because actually it’s not the event itself that is good or bad for us, but its implications in our life.)

And the ONLY thing that defines, which line we go to, is how we see this event: as good or bad.

Zeland then gives this process to apply when something happens, something that we really, really don’t like. We can ask ourselves:

1. Do I like it? – Not at all.

2. But do I want it to turn even worse? – Not at all.

3. Then I will trust, that even though I can’t see it right now (maybe I will see it later), even though it looks absolutely impossible to me, but still, it’s something good in my life. It’s something very good for me. I just can’t see it yet, but I can trust, that I will.

It reminds me of Mike Dooley’s Note from The Universe:

“There are only miracles, – and to one degree or another they all soothe, pamper and enrich. However, to avoid blowing too many minds at once, some are disguised as unpleasant surprises, botched circumstances, and twisted acquaintances that can rarely been seen for what or who they truly are until the pendulum has fully swung.

So if something still hurts, baffles or confuses, it only means a miracle has occurred, the pendulum is mid-swing, and that soon you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about.
The Universe.”

I remember very vividly one situation, when I applied this process: at my work, when I was just starting at a new place, and there was one guy who came to work there at the same time. And we both got the same exercise. And he already was finishing it, while I was still somewhere in the beginning, as I couldn’t write anything before I was deeply understanding it all. God was I stressed….. I didn’t see ANYTHING good in it at all…. Then I did this process, and I remember how hard it was to trust… but I said: “even though I can’t see ANY reason why it could be good, but I’ll just trust that it is.”

As I see it now, this mere thing already aligned me in some way.. and I started to see it as something not that bad…. and then it happened, that because that guy did it all quickly, he didn’t pay attention to too many details, while I, taking it slowly and thoroughly, found a mistake in the program we were working with. And it was how I was then appreciated at that work: as someone who goes deep and understands the basis, who works thoroughly, who can be relied on to do the good job. So it did turn to be good. But it was so impossible to see when I was applying the process.. :)

So… “It was good.” – feels good.

“But, you wasn’t useful at that time for your employer. You wasted their resources.” – feels bad.

Alright, this reminds me of what I heard yesterday here:

(“Abraham-Hicks: AA 12 step program re-write”: video)

how Abraham said: “So now you create in their experience?”

So, okay, “I didn’t do for them anything they wouldn’t be getting anyway” – feels a little better.

“I create in my reality and they create in their reality” – feels better.

“I can rely on it that we all find our way” – feels better.

“I can rely on it that their Source calls them and this thing is somehow good for them, too.” – feels better

“It was good for them” – feels the best! :)

So now I know that it was good thing that I did it, it was good for me, it was good for my employer… wow now I have this experience in my bag of memories as something good….. feels as a great relief..

Now it reminds me as Abraham says “to get aligned with Who You Really Are, you only need to stop what you’re doing, that holds you separated.” I really feel it, as if a weight is lifted, and I feel light, easy, worthy, good, blessed, loved. I love it. :)

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