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Another advantage of having WP cron server-called

Yes, this is an official jump, opening for me: I will be writing here about WordPress, too, and all my wonders with it. Especially when there’re so many. :)

Of course I’m continuing with all my self-coaching joy, AND I will be writing about my programming and other joys here, too. I am officially giving myself permission to it. :)

Why do I even need this permission? I just felt, that I as if feel, that the blog, the way it is, defines, what is to be written here. Yet, it is me, my blog, where I write what is essential joy for me, so what if from defining it as “self-coaching oriented”, it would be “all-that-interests-me” oriented? After all, this is what “Allowing Life” is :)

So, to the subject topic: I just found yesterday, that I can redefine the way WordPress works with scheduled tasks. Instead of running wp-cron.php on every page loaded, I found, that this mechanism can be disabled, and instead, wp-cron.php can be called from my server. Releasing the page loads, and also making this cron work more precise, more reliable.

The additional bonus of all that I just discovered, was that my server also gives me the option to be sent all output from those wp-cron.php runs. And it already helped me several times today – sending some reports on what I would not pay attention to myself, or just would not pay attention to that this soon, or wouldn’t find where it is, that soon, etc.

Besides, it’s just nice, to know that I am being kept notified. It is set in such a way, that when there is no output, it doesn’t send anything, so I only get emails useful for me.

And my feeling is – relief. I feel cared for. Easy. Knowing. Free. Loving. Excited with all these technologies that make our life easier and more convenient, add more comfort. Yay to us all :)

Other plugins I’m exploring now: WP Better Emails, SendGrid, WP eMember and several others. And you?

A different wholeness, a different balance

I was in a course these days, teaching some interesting inner work: I was being each of three me I found, it gave interesting perspectives.

During the process, what one of those me asked another, was to light a candle and be there, all three of us. (I also felt it could be applicable in Morning Pages.)

Then when that course part ended, I came to my table, and realized I have there an arrangement of three candles. I thought, wow how symbolic, and I lighted them all, and I was feeling this union, how each of us is herself, and our union, of those who each has her own viewpoint, strength, view of life.. Beautiful feeling.

AND (those who know me more, know I use that instead of ‘but’ – Bashar suggested it and I loved it) when the candles were extinguished, I had an unpleasant feeling – that those me, what, extinguished?

And then I realized, that we are (ok, I am) taught always to be in balance, wholeness, providing “the two parts of the coin” – to compare pluses and minuses of a situation, to see “bad and good,” right? “To embrace both sides of life,” you know.

But then I realized, that those sides we (I) can choose ourselves.

For example: I remember it distinctly, that Esther was told by Abraham not to be upset about bad feeling book reviews, but then not to pay too much attention to the good feeling reviews, either, as it was a complex (at least that’s how I understood it then – that it was because it was a complex, bound together, two sides of the same coin, which was dependence in others’ opinions. I don’t remember what exactly was told by AH – and then again, if each new moment we are in a new reality – then there is a new AH even in the past now, and nothing can be certain, nor that it should be).

But now I felt-and-thought, that we could just choose other two sides of the coin, and then we could enjoy them all!

In case for the candles, instead of two sides as:
(1) when the candle is lighting, my parts are alive, and
(2) when the candle is not, my part is not –

I could choose the following two sides:

(1) when the candle is lighting, I can feel this externalized (and internal, a union of external and internal) being me, symbolicness of it, and
(2) when the candle extinguishes, the parts of me are just internal, or they show up symbolically in something else, maybe in the whole world.

You see?

And with Esther, what if instead of the following two sides:
(1) there’re people who love her books
(2) there’re people who don’t love their books

instead she could choose the following, for example:
(1) there’re people who love her books – as readers
(2) she on her side loves her books – both as reader and writer (I certainly know the pleasure of both sides :))

Isn’t it much more powerful and enjoyable? And then it would open like a fractal, like a flower, developing itself further! What an exciting perspective!

And it’s done with this simple shift, of where to have the wholeness, the balance.

When on the next day of the course I shared this insight, the course trainer told me, it sounds like, in a very soft organic way, disassembling <something> (I don’t remember exactly her words, something like maybe point of view, or state, or me, or something), and then reassembling it anew, in a way that serves me more.

Slight difference, great change – all as I love. :)
Thank you for being with me in this. :)

What helps me to handle others’ opinion

when I feel I’m ..not becoming happier with it.

The thought that helps me, is:

“I’m tempted to take into my focus as my point of view a perceived by me someone’s opinion.. that doesn’t even feel like my Source would confirm it (because it feels bad), so it’s not even serving for me to think that.”

And then I’m not trying to release the temptation, I can simply observe.

“I’m tempted to”, by the way, is a wonderful tool, recommended by Eloheim & The Councils:


(“Eloheim & Levels of Creating”: video)

And what helps you?

Next stage to Bashar’s Triple A

In the Allowance seminar, Bashar spoke about three stages, three components of Triple A formula:

1. Acknowledge
2. Appreciate
3. Allow

I spoke about my perception of these stages in the “Orgasmic” book (on the right). And I used it so.. and now I feel there’s the next stage of it for me added,

4. Love

It is like using it. It is a beautiful feeling. Being happy and having it all.

A new book for you, an orgasmic one :)

Olgasmic, the book

If you provide your answer, on how to turn thoughts into orgasmic ones, that would be wonderful!

It’s a title of my new book, just released:

“How to Turn
Any Rising Thought
Into an Orgasmic One:

How to Let a Rising Thought Be More Effective, Efficient,
Nurturing You With Pleasure”

Here’s the book description:

So you found a better feeling thought… What’s next?
Wouldn’t it be nice to milk it for more?
Wouldn’t it be flowing, from one good feeling thought to get to fly in beautiful alignment?
Wouldn’t it be sweet, to align easily, happily, in a delicious flow?
Wouldn’t it be benefiting you, to come to a higher frequency, while you’re enjoying the process?
Wouldn’t it be fun, to be aligning simply (but interestingly)?
The book will tell you how to do it, evoking in you some profound thinking, recognizing, realizing. Thoughts that will feel even better, and a vibration that is much higher, and a happiness ocean, flowing in you (or you basking in it).

See you in the book! :)

And what are your discoveries in working with your thoughts?

A therapeutic song

One of that kind of songs I love listening to, in the middle of the night, in big headphones. It seems then to take over the whole world. :)

At first when I saw the lyrics, I didn’t quite understand, what it was about. But later my aunt told me something unpleasant, and I felt inside this choice: the hurt or remembering our good loving times.

I put this song just to calm myself. But then I heard the lyrics, and they suddenly came in with all their help (see below, every word there seems important to me now).

Very therapeutic and beautiful.


(“Poets of the fall ~ Sleep”: video)

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OMG, how useful!

“‘How do I know the vibration of that which I do not currently have or experience?’ And the answer to that question is that you do have it. It is within you, and when you start to see it that way, it becomes easier. As long as you are holding that which you desire outside of yourself, and holding yourself apart from it by believing that you do not know how to get it, you will not find the vibration of it.

And as soon as you look within yourself for the vibration, you will not only find it, you will be able to hold it for as long as you like. Because what is inside of you cannot elude you, it cannot be separate from you. You are it, and it is you. And when you know that, when you embody that vibration, then that is the reflection that will show itself to you.

Now, the vibration is not detail-oriented. You do not have to worry about getting it just right. You do not have to wonder whether you are holding the right vibration for that which you wish to experience.

All you have to do is know what the essence of your desire is, and that is not very specific. So when you reach within yourself for the vibration of that which you desire, just know that you know intuitively what the essence of that desire is, and you will find it. And then the desire will find you.”

from Daniel Scranton’s channeling

“Screw finding your passion”?

Just found this article Screw finding your passion by Mark Manson, and I thought, Yes! :)

Not in the sense of passion being not important, of course.

In the sense that “finding the passion”, on my opinion, is another way to “set the circumstances in such a way that I could observe them and be happy.”

When I’m sure, it works the other way: we’re getting happy (aligning), and then our passion finds us, we just get the impulse to do something, and when we’re doing it, it’s a pleasure.

Better said, then life itself becomes a passion. Halleluja. :)

Day 4 in NaNoWriMo :: it comes by itself

I thought after such an effort at night (to finish doing all I felt I better be finishing then) I would feel like wanting to do nothing now, like I felt on day 2, but no, instead I feel like.. grown up. Like in the end of an exam session in the University, when I was feeling I can learn so much more now!

Maybe the difference is in a stage: a stage of a chaos in the system, or a stage when it went to the higher order. Bill Harris explained these stages:

“Dissipative structures flourish in unstable, fluctuating environments by
being plastic enough to handle the variations and changes in such
environments. The more ordered and complex a system becomes, the more
entropy it must dissipate in order to maintain its existence. Conversely,
each system has an upper limit, due to its level of complexity, of how much
entropy it can dissipate. This is a key point. If the fluctuations from the
environment increase beyond that limit, the system, unable to disperse
enough entropy into its environment, begins to become internally more
entropic, or chaotic.

If the excessive fluctuations continue, the chaos eventually becomes so
great that the system begins to break down until finally a point is reached
where the slightest nudge can bring the whole system grinding to a halt.

This point, which Prigogine called a bifurcation point — bifurcate means
to divide into two branches — is a decision point, a moment of truth.
Either the system totally breaks down and ceases to exist as an organized
system or it spontaneously reorders itself in an entirely new way.
Incredibly, this reorganization is non-causal and non-linear with what
went before — it is in no way predictable from prior conditions. Only the
probability of a certain outcome can be determined. The change is a true
quantum leap, a death and re-birth, and the main characteristic of the new
system is that it has the capability to handle the fluctuations, the input
from the environment, that caused the initial overwhelm and eventual
break-down of the old system. In Prigogine’s words, the system “escapes
into a higher order.”

Out of chaos comes a new order, a more evolved system. This new system has
a new stability and is able to more easily exist in the previously
overwhelming high fluctuation environment. But if fluctuations increase
again to a level beyond the system’s new and higher capacity for dispersion
of entropy, the process will repeat, resulting in new internal chaos and
another reorganization at a new and yet more evolved level.

The human brain is the ultimate dissipative structure, constantly taking in
energy and matter from the environment, constantly dispersing entropy. We
are able to handle amazing amounts of fluctuation from the environment,
encountering all kinds of new ideas, stimuli, and events, handling them
without threat to the system.

But if fluctuations reach a certain critical point, different for each
individual, we begin to feel overwhelmed and become less and less able to
deal with increased environmental input. Eventually, the system (our mental
construct of “what is”) is forced either to break down or to reorganize at
a higher, more evolved level. The process goes something like this: first
things make sense; then, as chaos increases, they no longer make sense any
more; finally, after reorganization, they make sense again, but in a whole
new way, never before imagined.

It is easy to see from the foregoing discussion that certain types of
people will be more likely to reach this “moment of truth” — what Abraham
Maslow called “peak experience” — and give themselves the chance of
“escaping into a higher order.” Those who constantly open themselves to new
ideas and experiences and who are not afraid of feeling a bit overwhelmed
once in a while are more likely to have this type of peak experience and
are therefore more likely to evolve.”

So I’m probably in a higher order now. I do feel like I am capable for more now. Great! :)

In the beginning it felt like writing, quickly, without editing, and I was doubting, if I ever want to stop, go back and edit, ever. And here I am wanting to edit more than to write something new, and what’s delicious for me now, is to write the details of what was only given as a trail, a trajectory, to give it a flesh, to get the juicy details in it, to milk it for more taste, for richer taste.

And I couldn’t see it coming.

It reminds me of Bashar’s “trusting the highest excitement”, about that girl who didn’t always want to do the cleaning for her animals:


(“Bashar – Trusting Your Joy”: video)

It also reminds me the Hero’s Journey in it all: because it’s a journey, and also because I remember that special part of the Hero’s Journey, “just before the dawn”, when it seems the darkest and the goal achievement seems absolutely impossible. And then it does come. Like my editing. :)

It’s a delicious home to be in, my writing, my communicating with the book, being in this space. I’m glad I’m here.

And here’s a video that explained to me why I was intuitively rejecting counting the words:


(“Abraham Hicks 2015 – It’s all about the energy and the energy leads to action”: video)

Taking score!! This is what counting words is! One more confirmation that it’s good (for me) to listen inside. :)

P.S. I’m writing it at the end of the day. Two editings (I mean, in two books) are done. But what I felt in the beginning of the day, that I’m ready – I felt it only when I wasn’t really approaching to do the physical stuff. The physical took me again, releasing it, agreeing, that I do nothing today.

Then 3am, I was called in. Feeling fulfilled now, letting myself speak, in a way that is approved by me now.

Day 2 in NaNoWriMo :: redesigning the purpose

Some of my tuning in and realizations:

“I’m trying to squeeze from me the physical writing of the book.
This is not the goal.
The goal isn’t to harass me into the writing,
nor to align me into the writing,

my goal is going into the Vortex in the stream of this subject.

My goal is to soften, soothe any thoughts I have about that.

My goal is to find the joyful spark, tread the joyful path,
find ease in it,
lighten up,
align so,
that the expression of this stream in my life turns to be answeets, ease, fun.

My goal is just to feel better!
And if this is the subject that rises up in me now –
then this is where I will align in,
and it will turn into the Happiness it is,
it will show me its bright side it already has.
It already has.
My work is to tune in, to see it.

And it is interesting,
all this theme is interesting,
and I love writing,
I’m going to write :) now I’m interested in it more.

Or not, I’m not that interested yet: it’s not Hell Yes yet.
So back to aligning.

But it already feels better,
and I have the feeling, that I stepped up from where I’ve been.
That’s what’s important.
The results will show up by themselves –
and whether they are expressed in writing or in anything else
(oh and I want it to be expressed in writing, because now I want to write!)
I love it that I feel better now already!”

I made a clip today from one other AH clip I found on YouTube (I left only the delicious part of it, the useful part for me, and gave it a name that was delicious for me. Source really enjoys it through me :))

Here it is:


(“Abraham-Hicks – Rampage of Happy Writing (good for NaNoWriMo)”: video)

Happy Writing! :)
Or softer: Happy Feeling! :)