Allowing Life :)

I was in a course these days, teaching some interesting inner work: I was being each of three me I found, it gave interesting perspectives.

During the process, what one of those me asked another, was to light a candle and be there, all three of us. (I also felt it could be applicable in Morning Pages.)

Then when that course part ended, I came to my table, and realized I have there an arrangement of three candles. I thought, wow how symbolic, and I lighted them all, and I was feeling this union, how each of us is herself, and our union, of those who each has her own viewpoint, strength, view of life.. Beautiful feeling.

AND (those who know me more, know I use that instead of ‘but’ – Bashar suggested it and I loved it) when the candles were extinguished, I had an unpleasant feeling – that those me, what, extinguished?

And then I realized, that we are (ok, I am) taught always to be in balance, wholeness, providing “the two parts of the coin” – to compare pluses and minuses of a situation, to see “bad and good,” right? “To embrace both sides of life,” you know.

But then I realized, that those sides we (I) can choose ourselves.

For example: I remember it distinctly, that Esther was told by Abraham not to be upset about bad feeling book reviews, but then not to pay too much attention to the good feeling reviews, either, as it was a complex (at least that’s how I understood it then – that it was because it was a complex, bound together, two sides of the same coin, which was dependence in others’ opinions. I don’t remember what exactly was told by AH – and then again, if each new moment we are in a new reality – then there is a new AH even in the past now, and nothing can be certain, nor that it should be).

But now I felt-and-thought, that we could just choose other two sides of the coin, and then we could enjoy them all!

In case for the candles, instead of two sides as:
(1) when the candle is lighting, my parts are alive, and
(2) when the candle is not, my part is not –

I could choose the following two sides:

(1) when the candle is lighting, I can feel this externalized (and internal, a union of external and internal) being me, symbolicness of it, and
(2) when the candle extinguishes, the parts of me are just internal, or they show up symbolically in something else, maybe in the whole world.

You see?

And with Esther, what if instead of the following two sides:
(1) there’re people who love her books
(2) there’re people who don’t love their books

instead she could choose the following, for example:
(1) there’re people who love her books – as readers
(2) she on her side loves her books – both as reader and writer (I certainly know the pleasure of both sides :))

Isn’t it much more powerful and enjoyable? And then it would open like a fractal, like a flower, developing itself further! What an exciting perspective!

And it’s done with this simple shift, of where to have the wholeness, the balance.

When on the next day of the course I shared this insight, the course trainer told me, it sounds like, in a very soft organic way, disassembling <something> (I don’t remember exactly her words, something like maybe point of view, or state, or me, or something), and then reassembling it anew, in a way that serves me more.

Slight difference, great change – all as I love. :)
Thank you for being with me in this. :)